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hangover.

Friday, December 28, 2007

8:47 PM

I've got Christmas hangover! Lol.

My Christmas was hella fun. I got this really nice necklace and tons of clothes. I'm gonna get more presents soon. I haven't seen a lot of my relatives from Manila yet.

I've been spending a lot of time with Lauren and her family these past few days. And we have so much fun together. We're always out at night. Lol! I'll try to get pictures soon.

My cousins on my Mom's side are all here and they're all so cute and naughty. I love them to death. Haha. I laugh and play a lot when I'm with them. We have this Shrek toy here in our house and it's as big as a normal sized doll and it sings I Love Rock And Roll and it scares the hell out of my little cousin.

I'll be spending the New Year at Paranaque with my Dad's side of the family. There's gonna be lots of parties and food there for sure. Im not that as excited as I thought I'd be cause I really wanted to spend the New Year at Boardwalk with friends. But I'm gonna get gifts and money over there. Haha. So I guess it'll be fine. I shall just expect the unexpected. And Ill be also spending time with some of my favorite cousins.

I wanna play Pokemon.

Enjoy the rest of your Holidays people. :)

uhm, totally random.

Friday, December 21, 2007

4:05 PM

This'll be a random post guys. Haha. Cause I dont really know what to talk about. So this'll be randomness galore.

Guess what? Guess what? I HAVE A CAT! Hahaha. She looks so fierce and hot. I love her gray eyes. She might look scary and not nice but I am somewhat drawn to her. She's one crazy cat you know, she walks around and bumps herself everywhere. Haha. She's funny. She's young palang eh. A kitten. And I named her Toffee! :) She makes me feel all good inside. And I really like the fact that I'm responsible for another living thing.

I really like planning on advance on everything. Like for example, if ever I got this new pet, I'd know what to name him/her. Haha. If I got a dog, I'd name it Mocha. If I got a rabbit, I'd name it Carrot. Crazy huh? Pero I'm really spontaneous din in a way. Whatever I feel like doing, even though it wasn't planned, basta may chance, I do it. Haha. I am so crazy.

Anyway, yesterday was our Christmas Party and it was kind of cool in a way. It was boring at some times pero I love the feeling of being around those people. I love my classmates. Even though sometimes, I talk shit about them, I realized that I love them to death and I have so much fun with them. Our adviser is really nice too. I can see that he really cares for us and I like that. Lol.

I realized another thing. It's like even though I've dreamt of the perfect everything and thought it'll make me the happiest person, in the end, I realized that what truly makes me happy, are the less than perfect things around me.

P.S.
I wanna thank the people who gave me gitfs. You guys know who you are. I love you! Mwah. Gifts ko pahabol nalang sa pasukan, okay? :)

christmas.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

6:49 PM

Christmas. Everyone's favorite holiday. Well, at least for me.

Every Christmas, me and my relatives on my Dad's side, have this tradition to spend Christmas Eve on the house in Paranaque. We used to have so much fun cause we're all together. It's the time of the year when, everyone bought gifts for every single one and you wouldn't go home empty handed. You'll get at least 3 or 4 gifts. The tree is perfect and our little cousins get their presents from Santa. And when we were little we used to wake up every single morning with presents on our Christams Socks that our parents put up for us. They play the role of "Santa" every year for us. But when I was around 11, the Santa thing stopped cause my Mom got tired of it and I already knew that she was Santa anyway. Bummer. And the food during Noche Buena was awesome. It was the best. We have ham, Filipino dishes, homemade cheesecakes and apple pies (in my opinion, my tita makes the best apple pie ever).

Oh how I miss those days. I'm not looking forward to it as much as I want to. I'm closer kasi to my Dad's side of the family. My favorite cousins are gonna be in the States for Christmas and New Years'. My favorite kuya cousins are gonna be in Paranaque. My eldest Tita would be alone in her house in Paranaque. And the cousins that we barely know are in Austria. Everyone was fighting kasi tapos us, the kids, were the ones who're are affected. So everyone ended up separated for Christmas. Rawr.

This year's Christmas would be kind of different for me cause it's gonna be my first Christmas here in Olongapo. I've been here since kindergarten and we haven't spent a single Christmas Eve here. It's new to me. Me and my Mom are gonna spend it with her side of the family. I love them to death but we're not that close. And they're all little kids so I really have no one to talk to. Pero I'm sure pa din naman na it'll be a blast. It's still Christmas and there's still gonna be presents.

Simbang Gabi. It's a Filipino tradition that I have never participated in. Haha. I plan on going every other night since the church is like a block away from our house. I went with Felice last night and it was kind of fun.

Christmas Food! Bibingka and puto bumbong. They're all so yummy. And of course, the most awaited Noche Buena. Haha. It's all so good.

There's one thing I'm looking forward to this Christmas. It's something special and really important to me. If you know me well, you probably know about it already. It excites me! :)

This is also gonna be the 11th Christmas that I wouldn't be able to spend with my Dad. My cousins are so lucky they'd be able to spend it with him.

9 days before Christmas people! Share the love and give smiles to everyone. We're all so lucky we have family and friends to share the love with. Mwah!

regrets, regrets.

Monday, December 10, 2007

8:13 PM

Have you ever wished that you could turn back time? To go back to the time when everything was right, when everything was perfect as it could be? I had.

I guess everything happens for a reason nga naman diba? I just wanna know what the reason is. I guess, this had made me stronger. It also made me realize really significant things. It also teached me a couple of lessons. And I guess may clarity na din kahit papaano. Pero why do I feel like something's missing? Oh how I wish things didn't end up this way. Pero I need to face the consequences. I made things this way eh.

Hmm, do you guys believe in karma? Based from experience, I guess I do. I really believe what goes around, comes around. I'm talking about both good and bad karma here. Naniniwala ako na if I give something to people, I'll get my share of blessings in return. Pero I'm not doing these kinds stuffs because of what I'll get in return ah. I just really like helping. It makes you feel all good inside, doesn't it?

I really learned my lesson. Before I say something, I need to be sure about it. I need to be 100% positive. Kasi I'll never know what the outcome might be. I really don't wanna have regrets. I also need to make better and wiser decisions in the future. So that I'll grow even more as a person. I wanna keep on learning..

Damn. Napansin ko I'm so random. Haha. It's kind of funny. I love my randomness.

P.S.
I had one of the best weekends ever last Saturday and Sunday. I love my family. Promise I'll post pictures soon. :)

xoxo

weekend getaway.

Saturday, December 8, 2007

1:45 PM

In about an hour or so, I'm on my way to Manila to go to Denise's despedia party. She's leaving for the States next week and she's gonna stay there for a month or so to spend the Christmas there with her family, my Dad and their relatives. I envy her! About the seeing my Dad thing. I so wanna spend some time with my Dad. I'm gonna stay at Manila until tomorrow afternoon.

Okay, okay. About the party. There really isn't a party. We're just gonna go partying around Eastwood. I think we're gonna be with Natasha and Joyce (friends from Manila). I hope Lauren's gonna be there too. I miss her to death. Haha.

I have nothing to wear!!! Can anyone lend me clothes that fit me? Haha. Kidding. It's too late for borrowing anyway. And hassle pa. I'll figure something to wear naman for sure. I can borrow from Denise. :)

Damnn. I have lots to do pala. Like the Math journal, the Biology report and to review for the pre-lim on Geometry. I forgot everything cause we barely did anything this week at school. We only had extra-curricular activities. Like playing the anklung and activities from KALIS, our school's Social Studies club. We had the debate, but we lost. It was such a bummer and I was so diappointed. But it's okay. And we had the Culmintaing Activity yesterday. And there was also an Acoustic Laban. But our class didn't have an entry cause no one would volunteer to sing. On the anklung thing, we played for the guests at Annual Red Cross Convention thing at the Subic Bay Convention Center. It was fun, I guess. Our class had a bonding moment nanaman. I saw Dick Gordon and he's short pala. Hahahaha.

I really like this song Bubbly by Colbie Caillat. It's like a feel-good song. And I like those types of songs. This particular song also makes me think of someone. :)

the low's of being an only child.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

6:42 PM

I'm an only child. People say, that I'm really lucky cause I get everything I want. They say I'm lucky cause I don't have to worry about siblings. They say I'm lucky cause all the attention is on me. But news flash to you guys, I aint that lucky.

The burdens of an only child are these:
1. My Mom is so over protective of me. When this school year started, I had a yaya. She was to bring me to school everyday and then pick me up afterwards. It was so embarassing for me. I didn't know what to do with it at first because imagine a sophomore, having a yaya. I hated it. I hated my life cause of it. I felt so uncomfortable. I felt trapped. But when I was starting to adapt the idea of it, that was the time when my yaya resigned to take care of her kid. My Mom didn't trust me back then.

2. I'm a brat. When I don't get what I want, I whine. Not literally whine pero I tend to act bitchy about it. And when I've calmed down na, I'm fine na ulit. Pero I'm still disappointed. And then afterwards, I pretty much accepted it na and I'm all good na. It's so hard to please me kasi. I'm really trying to change that attitude of mine. Because I have to face the fact that nothing is perfect and I couldn't get everything that I want. Growing up, I wish my parents didn't give me every single thing that I wanted. Para ngayong I'm old enough na, hindi ako nahihirapan. Pero I really can't blame them din naman. Everything is still up to me, anyway.

3. I'm always alone. My Mom works a lot. As in a lot. Her schedule is complicated as hell and it changes a lot. My Dad is in the States. I haven't seen him in 11 years but we still talk from time to time and he's still supporting me financially. So there's a lot of times that I need to be on my own. And I admit, it gets really, really lonely and scary. Especially in the evenings. When I hear noises downstairs, it scares the shit out of me and creepy thoughts enter my head.

4. I barely get attention. Yeah, my Mom's always there when needed pero I barely talk to her nowadays. She's always either at work or busy doing stuffs around the house and I always stay in my room. I go online or text people. So maybe it's my fault din. Cause nilalayo ko sarili ko sa kanya. Maybe that's why I'm friendly. Maybe that's why I always want people to notice me. Not in the attention-seeking way ah. Basta there's big part of me that wants to be known.

5. I don't have siblings. I can never have that bond with anyone. I envy people who have older brothers and sisters. I want someone I can share my stuffs with. Someone I can open up to. I want that kind of family.

I may not be happy all the time pero I'm really glad that I have people who truly care for me. They're everything to me. Without them, there wouldn't be a me. They're a blessing to me. You guys know who you are. Mwah. :)

I may be a brat sometimes pero I know where I stand naman. And I know how to accept. It's hard for me pero it doesn't mean na I don't know how. I may be bitchy at times pero it's not who I am naman. Everyone has those days naman diba? Days na super bad trip sa lahat and masungit and stuff. I have those days din. I always do. Kaya sa mga people din na I tend to hurt or offend, trust me, I don't mean it. And I'm really sorry for it.

Ciao, guys.

a day to remember?

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

8:03 PM

Actually, my dad was pretty random but it was really worth remembering. Haha. At first it was all crappy and fcked up but it ended pretty well I guess.

My day was crappy cause I've been in this really stupid row with someone. Row as in fight. Haha. Shit. British talk! I've been reading this book written by a British author. It's called Can You Keep a Secret? by Sophie Kinsella. She writes some really funny stuffs. Haha. She's also the author of the Shopaholic books in case you didn't know. Haha. It doesn't really matter though. Im just inserting some random thoughts here and there. So about the fight, at the end of the day, it pretty worked out na. And everything was fine. :)

Another crappy thing is, there's this Indonesian or Indian instrument or whatever and it's called anklung. And our music teacher, picked our class to be in the anklung ensemble. At first, we thought it'd be kinda cool cause we'll be excused from classes and we'd be playing at different places and stuff but it turned to be a burden. Our teacher keeps on getting mad at us for the simplest reasons. As in, one teeny tiny mistake and she's gonna make everyone repeat it all over again. And if we did well for once, she'll still find something to complain about. I'd rather listen to boring lectures and have classes rather than keeping up with this. Its hella tiring. Haha. For you guys it might not be a big deal but it takes a lot of work to shake those things you know!

I love this day because.. Because of our funny moments at our rehearsals. Hahaha. >:) I love you Elaine. Do you guys know the song Crank Dat by Soulja Boy? I know it's all gangster and all but it's hilarious and fun to dance to. HAHAHA. So while at rehearsals, me and Elaine kept dancing the dance steps of the song. "Superman that hoe!". Wooooohooooo. >:) I want to take a video of us. Ill try to!

That down there, is the video of the song. Dance with us! Hahaha. We are so damn crazy.

Btw, I am so loving the dude's jacket. :D

new blog!

Sunday, December 2, 2007

4:37 PM

I am so excited. Haha. I dont really know why pero siguro its the fact that Im gonna start blogging again! Woohoo. I worked hard on this blog and thanks to Lauren, Elaine, Inna and Joyce for heliping me out. I love you guys! Mwah. Haha.

There's a question that's bothering me right now:
Should I go to church?
Or should I not?

If I went to church, I dont really have anyone to go with but I know people who can go with me pero it's not nice eh. If I dont go to church naman, I wouldnt be able to go out of the house. So, I really dont know.

Damn. I wanna watch Southpark but I really dont know what episode I am already Im kind of lazy to fix the dvd. Haha. Im on the 1st CD pa lang! Eh its four CD's. Haha. Im such a lazy bum.

The picture over there nga pala is me and the pumpkin man over at Mocha Blends during Halloween! Love it! Haha. Photo taken by Lauren. :)